Sooner or later, you too will develop some insight and address the " why" questiom and share it with the forum. It will be dissected as do all theories. What you will find is that every theory, yours too, is selective as to what parts of the incident fit well. The things that do not are frequently disregarded, much to the delight of the critics.
There are only 10 who know the truth. They are the 9 who died and God.